It's been a rough couple of months.
It really, really has.
I've had my heart broken in every possible way this year, and again I'm left trying with all my might not to brick up new, stronger, armour. Having Pickled Lily in my life is a lot of what keeps me from barricading myself in. Always has. If I did build up the protective defences too much, and shut myself off, we wouldn't have the same connection. Our whole relationship is fundamentally based on being exactly who we are, in a quiet comfortable unsaid way, if that makes sense, and the moment I shut her out, I shut out parts of myself, even to myself.
If there's even one person out there who brings out the most real parts of who you are, it's probably best to have them around. So as such, this is just my little personal note to myself, in case I ever forget. And to her, in case I never say it.
It really, really has.
I've had my heart broken in every possible way this year, and again I'm left trying with all my might not to brick up new, stronger, armour. Having Pickled Lily in my life is a lot of what keeps me from barricading myself in. Always has. If I did build up the protective defences too much, and shut myself off, we wouldn't have the same connection. Our whole relationship is fundamentally based on being exactly who we are, in a quiet comfortable unsaid way, if that makes sense, and the moment I shut her out, I shut out parts of myself, even to myself.
If there's even one person out there who brings out the most real parts of who you are, it's probably best to have them around. So as such, this is just my little personal note to myself, in case I ever forget. And to her, in case I never say it.
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